Measuring the impact of whiteness on the spread of COVID-19

On a Zoom call hosted by a mainstream national organization about COVID and a racial analysis on the impact of Black people experiencing homelessness. I can’t. I have to be honest, when Black people are contracting this disease as essential workers in the “reopening of America” and disproportionately dying from underlying health conditions brought on by unequal access to healthcare, this is not the time to intellectualize racism.

It is simple. Racism sucks. it kills. It is destructive. It is anti-feminine and woman. It is anti-LGBQI. It is anti-Trans. It is anti-Black. While it oppresses other groups, it creates a hierarchy of difference with Blacks and Native Americans interchanging on the bottom of a social pyramid and creates disproportionate impacts of annihilation across outcome measures. It goes against nature. It is the greatest threat to humanity and the planet.

I know this and I live this and I am not tired. I am pissed off. I am angry. I am collecting names. I am ready to fight but proceeding cautiously as this is the vibration this negative energy is conjuring and therefore I RESIST. Yet, I am also fervently praying for a spiritual response with self-protection and guidance so I don’t go too deep in creating a debt I won’t be able to deliver as the ceremony the night before the Haitian Liberation is deep in my mind and on my tongue. I am fire. I am calling on all the words of my spiritual teachers and spirit guides to transmute this ever-present yet rising rage into creativity so I use my gifts to design the fair and just world I seek. No matter how provoked, I will not destroy Earth or humanity to aid in the goal of my enemies. I honor this struggle the universe has placed me in.

So today, I don’t want to hear any more data on Black people and the rate of death caused by White patriarchal supremacy. The only data I want to hear are metrics on the impact of Whiteness and the contribution to an unstable, ill, collective consciousness currently being fueled even greater as people are at home “socializing” on the internet.

I need metrics that redefine the social determinates of health – not based on variance from an ideal society centered on whiteness, but add meaning to the psychic pain level if the illusionary mirror of white privilege were cracked; to know how much space and time you will need at that true moment of eruption when the Mothers upholding this planet have truly had enough and the false mirrors are broken.

I need metrics that measure the pain of disconnection from soul because you have been conditioned to believe that spirit and soul are feminine compared to the masculinity of reason; to understand how you value love and your own sense of belonging.

I need metrics that measure the degree of hatred toward your mother because she was born in the image of sin, and the variance of her being from God and the amount of value of the women in your life, including how you value your own divine feminine if you are a white woman; to understand how you value the principle of creation and your motives to continually attack the womb.

I need metrics of your anxiety and fear of erasure to understand how much my presence consumes your thoughts and influences your compulsive actions like killing while jogging Black; to understand the length of this quarantine from the untreated disease you shed that kills me.

I need a measure of your intelligence as you think that the symbolic “re-opening of America” (as if it ever really closed) is going to increase the wealth of you and your household; to understand the level of your comfort in being an economic slave.

I need a metric that rates your investment in your whiteness- the value of your membership in a socially constructed identity- over your freedom as a human being; to understand your value in your relationship with God (If God made you great, what do you then fear and why do you have to work so hard?)

I need metrics on the destruction of whiteness to calculate how much longer we all have here on Mother Earth; to understand the time I have to create a vaccine against Whiteness to breathe. To breathe. To breathe.

To be clear, these metrics are not just for white people, but for anyone and everyone who is conditioned in whiteness. As Queen Leia said – how do we use this quarantine to understand all of what we have been exposed to that does not serve our well-being.

Therefore:

I don’t dwell alone – I live in community.

I don’t dwell in fear – I live in hope.

I don’t dwell in debt – I live in promise

I don’t dwell in the “OR” – I live in the wholeness

I don’t dwell in hate – I live in love.

I don’t dwell in race – I live in the gradual improvement of my character.

I’m working on the anger – to live in coolness

Breathe, breathe, breathe

May the Mothers of the Earth protect and guide us. Bring us together in ease. Heal. Renegotiate. Cultivate harmony to end the war of men and women.